Polyphasic Sleep – Drugs

I knew a girl once for just 24 hours. It was a one night stand thing, one of the very few that I’ve had. I did go to the beach with her the next day, so I’m not sure if that strictly qualifies as a one night stand. She was a weird girl. She spent a great deal of the night sucking my feet, but I digress.

I was in town for a couple weeks to visit my mum with my 3 year old daughter. It was a night off for me. To cut a long story short I ended up in a house alone with this girl. She was a habitual pot smoker. This did not seem to have any apparent affect on her. She appeared bright, attractive, quick witted. …So out came the pot. I partook of the green weed as I definitely wanted to get laid. We got stoned and things progressed as you expect they would have.

During an evening of prolonged debauchery I discovered the following facts: She had just broken up with her boyfriend, a fulltime dope dealer. He supplied her with as much of the stuff as she wanted. She worked as an event coordinator in a five star hotel. She looked the part. She was small, petite, dynamic, bubbly. I also discovered she was basically stoned 24 hours a day. She smoked in the morning, during the day, and all evening. She took the stuff like cigarettes. Or morphine.

I was dumbfounded. How could a girl so bright, so beautiful, so alive, take so much marijuana and still function? If I get stoned that’s it for me. I might as well say goodbye to any production for about 24 hours. I’m no stranger to the stuff either. I spent about 3 years in my late teens in my own apartment living life through a smoky haze. Back then it was just what you did. But I didn’t take the stuff at work. My work suffered to be sure, but I was never stoned while working. It would not have been possible. At that time I worked in a factory with dangerous machinery. I was scared enough as it was.

So, years later, meeting this girl was a real eye opener for me. She was such a lithe little thing. Where did all that THC go? What a dynamo would she have been without the drug? Well, actually, she might have been a total mess without it. The point I want to make is, here was an apparently normal girl with a good job franticly trying to put herself to sleep. Even then, I was spending my life looking for ways to wake up! And here she was putting herself into emotional numbness her entire waking day. What pain she must have endured, to need all that sedative.

I talked to her about it. I told her, (I knew from experience) that she was heading down a path of destruction. She knew that she was. While we were sunning on the beach, she made the momentous decision to not smoke during the day. From now on, she only going to smoke at night. That was a huge thing for her.

I never saw her after that so I don’t know how it turned out for her.

My point? There is no kidding yourself that marijuana is harmless. It leaves a residue and stays in the fatty tissues for months. It may or may not harm the lungs. That’s not the point. The point is that it destroys the mind. Its a death of a thousand cuts, one drop of blood at a time. Like alcohol, like many other things, it an attempt to put oneself to sleep. Little by little it adds molassis to the brain.

One thing I like about Uberman is it is an attempt to wake up. Sleep is not natural. Who was it that said: the less you know, the more you believe? There is so much I want to know. There is so much I don’t know. What I have until I do know all that I want to know, is a great deal of belief. I believe the raising of consciousness, of awareness, perception of the environment is probably the single most important thing we can do towards achieving a higher state of beingness. And I believe that achieving a higher state of beingness is all that can give meaning to a life. All else is transitory and is left behind at death. Will we carry our awareness with is into and beyond death? Now THAT is the big question, is it not?

So I say to all you dope smokers out there, don’t do it. Give it up and find it that much easier to wake up. And there will be one less thing in your life that is putting you to sleep.